kinshuk sunilit aint no, dessert if therez no caek

I assume,
your every word is true.
I assume,
what I see is real.
I assume,
I can walk where I want to.
I assume,
I am this fly caught in this bottle.

I am afraid,
of what waits for me out there.
I am afraid,
of what I’ll face, the unknown.
I am afraid,
I am falling down.
I am afraid,
I am loosing my ground.

I assume,
I have been fooled by everyone,
And I know, it’s true,
Assumption over-ruled.
I assume,
I don’t trust anyone,
And I know, it’s true,
Assumption over-ruled.

I walk on the,
shore of life.
Disturbing some,
sands of time.

I pickup a handful,
and I peer into it.
It shows me,
my deeds, my words.

I can preserve it,
or, throw it away,
but, I,
I need to be cautious,

with my present,
as every thought,
is inscribed as one more,
grain of this sand.

I want this shore,
to become a beautiful beach,
where people may come,
to brighten,
their day.

I am omniscient,
I am everywhere.

I am in the trees,
in the flowers,
in dew.

I am in the breeze,
in the earth,
in you.

It is me who does it,
for whom its being done.

I am the past, present,
the future,
I am the One.

There’s a deep chasm,
a void in my heart.
I saw you, yesterday.
I saw your face.
I saw you walk, talk,
I saw you lone and sad,
I saw you, in disgrace.

I want to run away from myself,
I want to hide me from myself,
I die, I am killed,
by myself.

Thoughts and memories,
they don’t fade,
they live, make me
bleed, drive insane.
I’ll close myself,
throw myself down the edge.
Drown myself in a stupid emotion,
I call it love.
I am lone and sad,
I drew myself in disgrace

I don’t want to be myself,
I want to hide me from myself,
I bleed from these wounds,
inflicted on me, by myself.

Myself, the darkest I can be.
Myself, I betray myself.
Myself, cheated, betrayed,
I fall for you, and I,
I fall in you,
I disappear, disapparate into nothingness.

I want to run away from myself,
I want to hide me from myself,
I die, I am killed.
I don’t want to be myself,
I want to hide me from myself,
I bleed from these wounds,
inflicted on me, by myself.

This is not what i vouched for.
I have been defeated, by myself.

Its been so tough for me, ma
not to call you in all this time.
Its been so painful for me, ma
to cause you this hurt and pain.
For all those meaningless words, i said,
for every time i made you cry.
Wanting to be good for you,
all those advices that came in a fly.
If you’d allow me to say,
just a word, ma,
I’ll say, sorry.

I’ve learned my lesson, ma,
this distance has taught me so.
I must not impose myself on you,
and not be the fool for you, ma.
What i think is not the only thing,
that you must think too, ma.
I trespassed your individuality, ma.
For all of my stupidities,
if you’d allow me to say,
just a word, ma,
I’ll say, Sorry.

I cant describe to you, ma,
how i feel now.
Knowing my mistakes, I am
afraid to vow I wont repeat, ‘cuz,
you wont trust me ma, you wont be assured
so, knowing that this
will be the last chance,
to say all things that,
I’d want to say, ma,
for all those times when you made me smile,
for all those times when you washed my tears,
for all those times when you were close to me, ma,
and you made me feel family,
If you’d allow me to say,
just a word, ma,
I’ll say, thank you.

I know, ma,
now you must be happy,
but I want to beg you, ma,
just forgive me,
as you’ve always done.
Just bless me once more, ma,
and this time,
I’ll prove a worthy son.